A Lot of Changes

The beginning of a new school year nearly always throws me in a tizzy. It was especially difficult this year. You would think being a grandma shouldn't have the same affect on you as the little ones start school.

I got my girls started in school. Boy, does getting them to the bus at 6:40a.m. seem early. It will be worse later on, though, when it is still dark. I think I make lunches half-asleep. I wonder what exactly I pack in those lunches???

Thursday through Monday I had Ethan. The first 2 days were extremely difficult, as he had a stiff neck and was not a happy camper. By Saturday, he was back to his old self. Somehow I managed to remember his medicine every morning and every night. I got him to take a nap (and yes, even with gas prices so high, I took him for a little drive to help enhance his ability to fall asleep.) And I got him in bed at nearly the same time every night. By Tuesday morning, I was starting to feel awfully attached to this little boy. But Tuesday, was his first day at "school."

At 3, Ethan started preschool for kids with special needs. He gets 3 hours a day, 4 days a week. We have been pretty excited, as he will have therapists there helping him each day. He can't help but make a lot of progress, right? His first day went great. His teacher said he was much higher functioning than they anticpated. The second day went well also.

But me? Today, I have been a basket case. I started crying for no reason. I was sad that I hadn't been able to be there for his first day. Sad I didn't get to meet his new teacher who will be so much a new part of his life right now. So this afternoon, I called to hear how his third day went. I needed to know things were still going great.


I wish that is what my daughter had been able to tell me. Unfortunately, he was not having a good day. He woke up very unhappy and destructive. She realized she forgot to give him his meds. last night. From there it went from bad to worse. And his teacher said after school, that he did not have a good day. He was pinching some of the other kids.

Hmmm...this is tough, I don't know if I'm going to be able to make it through a year of Ethan being so far away and not being able to do anything about it.