I try to speak,
no words form.
Pain is all I feel.
The pain is real.
Some burdens must be carried alone.
This burden is too heavy Lord. I need you to take it from me. I am weary and heavy laden. Give me your burdens because you have promised that YOUR burden is easy, and YOUR yoke is light.
will have no love for others and will refuse to forgive anyone. They
will talk about others to hurt them and will have no self-control. They
will be cruel and hate what is good.People
will turn against their friends. They will do foolish things without
thinking and will be so proud of themselves. Instead of loving God, they
will love pleasure. (2 Timothy 3:3-4)
The conversation began over feelings of discouragement. My daughter wanted to be more positive, but was discouraged that life wasn't going in the direction she had hoped and planned. She expressed her desire to be grateful, but waiting was hard. What if life takes a turn and her dreams never become reality?
I shared that I understood, but even when setbacks happen, it didn't mean she wouldn't attain her goals. I remind her that when her grandparents married, they were told they most likely would never have children. It was not my mother's goal to have her first child at the age of 19. Nor did she plan to have 4 children in 4 1/2 years. I expressed thanks that my mom's plans were interrupted by those pregnancies. Had they waited 5 years to have children, I wouldn't be here, and neither would she. These setbacks did not stop my mother. She not only raised 4 children, but pursued and fulfilled her dreams and desires. She has never slowed down. Her life just became fuller and richer.
I thought about Abraham and Sarah from the bible. God promised them a child, but the waiting was hard. Had God told them exactly how long it would be before they received their Isaac, would it have been easier for them to wait patiently?
I admitted to my girl, that it is sometimes hard to have faith and to trust God. I reminded her that God is good. If we ask for a fish, He isn't going to give us a stone.
She replied, "No, He won't give us a stone, but He might give us kale. And while kale is certainly good for you, it really is awful."
It was hard to respond to that.
"So I say to you, ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.If a son asks for breadfrom any father among you, will he give him a stone?" (Luke 11:9-11)
melts my heart. Monday he had an EEG-a sleep deprivation EEG.
Basically he has to stay up until midnight. After 4 hours of sleep, he is awakened and kept awake until his scheduled EEG. I hate that he has to do this. Sleep deprivation causes seizures, which is why the doctors choose to have their patients sleep deprived before the testing. Sweet boy...shouldn't have to go through this. This isn't Ethan's first EEG.
celebrated his first birthday on Sunday.
He exudes happiness and is a mover and a shaker. Can you tell that he likes cake? My heart melts like butter. Happy First Birthday Josiah!
This girl is in town for a visit.
After a long day of travel, she was a little overwhelmed. Aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents surrounded her. I reached my arms out, "Ivydee!" She had the biggest smile when I scooped her up. My heart completely melted.
And then there is this boy:
Snugglebug Beckham melts my heart daily.
When not melted, my heart is so very full.
"Assuredly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God as a little child will by no means enter it.And He took them up in His arms, laid His hands on them, and blessed them." (Mark 10:15-16)