Betrayal

The past seven years have been good ones. I love spending time with you and do every chance I can.  Right now, I don't know what you are feeling or what you are thinking. Do you feel betrayed?

Our relationship works, always has.  I've done my best to take good care of you, provide for your needs, pamper you, protect you.  You in turn have been there for me, a faithful friend, going along for the ride whenever I'm available.  You are always up for whatever adventure I choose.  I treasure your company.  You make me smile.

I know some family members find you irritating at times. You are not up for crowds, it is too much for you to handle.  Your comfort zone is pushed to the limit when more than two of us try to join you.  Some say you are difficult to deal with and choose not to come along when we go out. I'm okay with that.  We always have fun together.  We have a good relationship. 

I hope you have not misconstrued what is happening.  I know too well what it is like to be judged, how my actions can be perceived to be something they are not.  Please understand, nothing has changed.  I still love you.

I know it is not like me to leave you vulnerable, exposed to the harsh realities of the world.  I care about you and would give anything to keep you from getting hurt. I don't send you out by yourself, or leave you alone for long periods of time.  Where you go, I go.

I know you are confused.  Don't be. There is an explanation for why this has happened.  You may hear well intentioned people question my motives, wonder aloud if I care, ask if you'd like to live with them, and hear promises of better treatment.  I'm sorry you have to hear such expressions.  I'm sorry for the fear, stress, and worry you may be going through because of the words of others.

Please know, it was never my intention to hurt you.  I'm truly sorry for my actions.  I'm very, very busy this week and with the weather being such a huge factor in getting things done, I can't spend time with you.  I can't come get you. You can't come home right now, but soon.

Baby, I'll try to get there by Sunday. Here is a pic of me on the last day we spent together.

And there you are, sheltered beneath that great big tree.  You will be okay. Twenty-seven inches of snow is a lot, but I will get you out of there. I truly had no idea this would happen to you, or I would have left you safely at home.  Don't think I betrayed you, see it as an adventure.

Truthfully,
Joanne

"Be merciful and gracious to me, O God, be merciful and gracious to me, for my soul takes refuge and finds shelter and confidence in You; yes, in the shadow of Your wings will I take refuge and be confident until calamities and destructive storms are passed." Ps. 57:1